On Friday my yin yoga teacher mentioned that we’re basically translucent. She was describing an autopsy video that she’d watched where the practitioner shined a light through layers of human skin, tissue, organs and bone and all were illuminated.  This made sense to me because all of these layers are porous, including bone, so of course light would shine through us.

This all made the idea of that ‘our felt sense of separation is an illusion’ a lot more real for me.  Many smart people have said this, like Einstein. And what if this idea of denying the flesh really has to do with denying any notion that we are disconnected from each other and all of life?

We are ‘one body,’ no?

It’s taken me whole weekend to get this out and to process my thoughts on this.  And what does this have to do with love?

Well I think it’s the answer and the cure to the darkness.  We have to love all those separated little dark spots in the body where no light is shining through right now.  Knowing that’s it’s possible, that light can penetrate those areas  –  those dark spots in us and in others.  It requires radical acceptance and maturity, I think.



Our Daily Bread

I say the Lord’s Prayer almost daily and lately have found resonance with this idea of asking for daily bread. “Give us this day our daily bread,” we say. Jesus’ prayer asks for today’s bread, not yesterday’s or tomorrow’s.

Can I live like this? – I ask. Accepting and digesting only that which is available today. Not overly concerned about past or future but here, now, trusting that today’s bread is enough.

Can we?

Let Yourself be Done

Last night I was listening to an interview between Oprah and Wayne Dyer.  It had to do with Dyer’s studies of the Tao Te Ching.  In the interview he said a few times that the Tao teaches that we are to do nothing, rather we are to allow ourselves to be done.   He also said that Tao means “the way.”

I thought this was interesting because I’d been thinking about Jeremiah’s visit to the Potter’s House all week.  I thought that would end up being the theme of my Spirit Flow class in Wayne last night but instead I felt compelled to talk about prayer.  But this morning I talked about the Potter’s House in my Saturday 9AM Clifton class: God told Jeremiah to go down to the potters house.  Jeremiah found the potter there working with his clay, it took one shape, then fell apart and then the potter reshaped the mess into something else.  God said to Jeremiah ‘just as the potter does, can I not do this with you?’

And yesterday on a call with mom she referenced Malachi 3:3 which has to do with being refined by fire.

And this morning I rediscovered a quote attributed to Michelangelo  “there is a statue in every block of stone.”  As if to suggest that we are masterpieces waiting to happen, the excess just needs to be chipped away.  we need to be formed, and reformed and refined.

So back to this idea of being done. What if we did less doing and more allowing?  What if all we really need to do is be present and allow our lives to take shape in the ways that they were designed to?

“Be still and know that I AM God.”



Light up the Darkness

Last night in Cheryl Barclay’s Bob Marley Yoga class she opened with his simple quote ‘Light up the Darkness.’ It made me think of this dark closet that I have  in my apartment.  I interact with this closet on a daily basis and yet I’ve never turned on the light in there.  I have a general sense of what’s in there and have learned how to navigate it in the dark.

But I did this thing the other week, I screwed in a light bulb in my closet and turned on the light!  It was really a moment. I found all sorts of things, both useful and unnecessary.  Many things were thrown away and others repositioned and reorganized.  It was a little breakthrough for me.

This morning I told this story in my yoga class and encouraged us all to turn on the lights in our metaphorical closets and really deal with our stuff.

Imagine that!

Yesterday a friend asked ‘What’s your life full of these days that makes you feel alive?’  I responded by saying that my life is full of ‘doing more things that scare me.’  Things like turning on the light, exposing.. dealing with.. clearing out..  letting go… correcting.. repositioning… reorganizing..   It’s scary but its making me feel alive too.  And its a more authentic way to live; better than feeling around in the dark, I think.

Light up the Darkness




An Adulthood Crisis?

I’ve been listening to Marrianne Williamson’s talks lately on YouTube. She’s said that we have a “Crisis in Adulthood” in our country – a lot of kids walking about in adult bodies. It’s interesting to think about and I have been all week.

This shows up in our relationships- we can be selfish, having a ‘what can you do for me?’ sort of attitude. Or blame others when things go wrong rather than look introspectively and ask ‘how did I contribute to this?’  Or maybe we have tantrums or punish when we don’t get our way?

In Paul’s letter to Corinth, he says “when I was a child I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I reasoned as a child but when I became a man I gave up childish things.”

Perhaps It’s time to give up childish things? Instead of taking, give. Instead of blaming, take responsibility and self-correct. Instead of pouting and punishing, accept.

Do the Work

Life has been really good lately.  I am doing work that I love, I have a great therapist, a new trainer, new patterns and habits, I’ve met some new men and I’m going on new dates; and I’m being more intentional about connecting with my friends – not just on social media, but really seeing my friends and spending time with them. When we connect, my friends say “what’s happening with you, Friend?” And I often say “not much,” but that’s not really true so I have been updating my instagram page more often  – taking photos –  to remind myself of how awesome and new each day is. Each moment.

This morning in my Spirit Flow class, I taught from John chapter 5 verses 1-8.  Its the story of a man who had been laying by the pool of Bethesda for 38 years, waiting to be healed.  When Jesus encountered him he asked: “do you want to be made well?” the man responds by saying that nobody is there to help him into the mystical waters when the pool gets stirred up and he never gets in there in time to get his healing.  Then Jesus responds by saying “Pick up your mat and walk!” and the man is instantly healed and starts walking.

A few things about this teaching:

  1. The man had a long relationship with his affliction.  As so many of us do. Who would we be without it?
  2. He was close to healing but had never been healed himself. He’d seen so many other people healed, laying by that pool for 38 years.  But he was still sick.
  3. His healing required him to do the work! Jesus said “do you want to be made well?” its a question we all should ask.  Yes we may know our affliction and even be comfortable with it but do we want to be made well?  And his answer.. “well nobody has helped me…” No. Nobody is coming to save you.  instead you must do the work. Get a therapist, join a program, find a community,  a church, engage a life coach, find a  yoga studio, a trainer, a gym, get on E-harmony, quit your job, get out of that relationship, let go, change your habits, clean your house, be intentional, start. Whatever it takes, you know what you need to do because you have seen other people healed. Do the work. It may not be easy. But it’s up to you to pick up your mat and walk.


Kitchen Inspiration

I do not want to have you to fill the empty parts of me

I want to be full on my own

I want to be so complete I could light a whole city

and then I want to have you

cause the two of us together could set it on fire.

– Rupi Kaur

Reading this made me think of how often we look to others to fill our empty spaces. We take energy from each other and when we feel that we are not getting enough, we become dis-eased and dissatisfied.   This happens in all types of relationships, not just romantic ones.

But the toaster oven doesn’t say to the microwave – ‘hey, I need electricity from you.’ They both need it, and they get it by plugging into the source.  The source has an infinite supply of electricity to give and when these devices are plugged in, they are empowered to give in the special ways that they were designed to.